Hey beautiful Subscribers ! How is everyone? It seems like it’s been a long time since I last posted. The last two weeks have been a bit hectic between attending classes, homework, new friends, moving, getting settled, chapel services, adding/ dropping classes, etc things have been pretty busy for me. I am so thankful to be sitting down and taking some time to write.
Can’t forget to take that time to BREATHE and do some SELF-CARE. What kind of things have you done this week for self-care ? I am sure some of you are probably thinking that, I talk A LOT about self-care. I talk A LOT about it because it is very important to me and it’s something that I want us all to remember to do. Also, talking about it in my blogs makes me hold myself more accountable and I hope it does the same for you or even more .
I don’t know about you but usually when I am faced with a new situation I am a little nervous.
I sat there in the library, I stared around. I looked at books, I looked at my computer screen and lastly I looked at my reflection in the window. Wow, I thought to myself I need to get to work and rearrange my schedule. I logged onto the website and began searching through my class requirements, it took me a while but I ended up finding a class that matched what I was looking for. I added myself to the class successfully.
The next day arrived. I was nervous but excited to go to this class which happened to be a creative writing class. I got there early and I looked around and found my class. In the hallway beside my classroom there were students waiting. I began talking to them asking them if they were going into the class I was and I also asked their majors.
To my surprise, GUESS WHAT their majors were? drum roll please…… ENGLISH.
So I was not only in the right place for class, but I had met some English majors! Before I knew it, it was time to go into class. I not only got to write for this class but I also got to see my professor’s book cover for his upcoming book!
As class moved along, at some points I didn’t know what was going on, due to it being my first day. In spite of not knowing what was being talked about at some moments, this class session was one of the highlights of my week ! To get to do what I love, be taught how to improve, and to be able to explore writing in a different way, is exciting! I felt calm and content after class ended for the day, it’s as if that was where I was supposed to be all along. This feeling made me feel that despite everything I’ve been feeling lately everything was going to be fine. Maybe God wanted me in one place but it’s like I was going everywhere but where he wanted me.
My Journey With Writing :
My memory as a small child is in bits and pieces, I don’t remember exactly what age I wrote my first poem, song , or story. However, I do remember trying to write poems and songs at about age 11 or so. During this time I didn’t realize how much writing would steal my heart. I grew up and continued to go through the motions and obstacles of life and writing was put on the back burner. Don’t get me wrong I wrote for class papers, projects, etc but free writing I don’t remember doing as high school moved along. It was pretty rare that I did. High school came and went and I graduated. Writing didn’t come back into my life for good until, after I joined the military and it began to pull on my heart-strings. Writing became a way for me to express my true thoughts and feelings with words. At the time writing helped me to describe the pain I was in, dealing with anxiety and the death of a loved one. Writing became my go to and it freed my mind in ways that nothing else at the time could do. Writing became my comfort, it became a thing I could run to, where I could hide from the troubles of this life. My notebook was a place where I could be whoever I wanted, whenever I wanted to. As I have gotten older and been dealing with an illness for the last four years writing has become a part of me and who I am. I couldn’t imagine myself not writing. Writing has become my way to connect with and spread love to others. Writing has become the way I make sense of the world. Writing has become me.
The older I get the more I realize I enjoy creating things, it keeps my mind busy. Creating a to do list, creating a new writing, creating a new book idea, creating a new blog, creating a way to connect with people and spread love. Create, create, create. I have grown to enjoy and participate in different forms of art! (ex. acting, singing,painting). Do you have a certain type of art that you enjoy?
Thank you for reading and letting me share my journey with you !
“Nothing is as important as passion. No matter what you want to do with your life, be passionate.” – Jon Bon Jovi
Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.