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Want to be challenged to think outside the box? Want to gain new perspectives on issues you may be dealing with? Want to be inspired?

Check out my book Words Are Art: See The World Through My Eyes !

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Be Yourself…

If you follow me on Instagram you will know that I really like this picture of myself.  Some of the reasons I like this picture are because I have on no makeup,  my hair is messy & blowing in the wind, you can see my tired eyes, some acne, my braces showing, my uneven eyebrows  and if you look closely you can kind of see the scar on the left side of my forehead(technically on the right side in this picture) . The only editing I did to this picture is brightening it up other than that, this is all me, imperfections and all.

It seems a lot of people are afraid to show or be themselves in today’s society.  Instead we become what we believe others want us to be. It’s like we have gotten so afraid of being rejected we hide or change ourselves to please others and fit into their expectations of us.

I spent years of my life always trying to live up to the expectations of what “I thought” loved ones wanted me to be, and all it did was make me unhappy. It made me begin to put on a facade that masked the real me. I became convinced I wouldn’t be accepted if my loved ones really knew me, flaws, illness, and all. I got to a point where I hid so much of me I was unsure who I was, and it was causing me a lot of emotional stress.
In the midst of me trying to hide parts of myself and not be myself, distance grew between us. Not only did distance grow but resentment in me grew because I wanted nothing more than to be myself , but I had faked for so long it felt impossible.  I felt conflicted, but I didn’t know how to be myself anymore. I was confused on what to do and this went on for years. It wasn’t until I got tired of being unreal with everyone, and I asked the questions who am I living for? and why do I continue to hide myself ? that I was able to gain a new perspective . When I got to that point and I realized how unhappy I was making myself, out came the truth. It took me a long time to get to the point where I realized I was doing myself more harm than good by hiding parts of myself.

Don’t make the mistake I made, don’t waste precious time living your life and being what your friends or family want you to be, or what you think they want you to be, live your life to please God. I’ve come to realize through my own struggles that being yourself and surrounding yourself with people who love you for you is more gratifying and less headache. We are all imperfect. It is okay to be yourself. It is also okay to be different, you don’t have to fit in or be what others expect you to be.

–  Love God & Love People. Be Blessed & Thanks for reading.

 

Fun Facts About Me! 

I decided to have some fun with this blog post, so you all can get to know me a little better ! The following 15 facts are all about me….

1.  I have approximately 12 tattoos, all of which can be covered by regular clothes.

2. One of my favorite tattoos is on my wrist and says “Be Free.”

3. In 10th grade I thought it was a good idea to do a project on vegetarianism, but I had no clue what it was like being a vegetarian. So I became a vegetarian and have been practicing different types of vegetarian diets since (about 8 years total.) I currently only eat dairy products. No chicken, fish, beef, pork, etc.

4. I eventually want to become a vegan.

5. I auditioned for both Juilliard and CalArts within a few weeks of one another. (Talk about NERVE WRECKING)

6. I love to sing but I don’t know how to read music.

7. Technically I am currently working on two new books a biography and a memoir. (Release dates coming soon)

8. Me and my mom have matching tattoos.

9. Non fiction is my favorite genre to write, but I prefer reading the Bible or fantasy books  (ex. kings, queens, knights,dragons,etc)

10. I changed my major in school 4 times. I finally settled on English & Theater only to now work on changing it again to allied health or pre med, so I can become either a emergency medicine doctor or physician’s assistant. We will see what happens ! (Though I have anxiety over it, I believe God will lead me where he wants me to be.)

11. Lemon water is my favorite drink.

12. If I don’t recognize ingredients in products when I’m grocery/vitamin shopping I google it.

13. The memoir that I am currently writing has been one of the most stressful things I’ve written.

14. I really enjoy animal documentaries/shows narrated by David Attenborough.

15. I’ve had braces a total of two times in my life, (once in high school & now in college) currently I’m on my second & last treatment with braces.

If you haven’t already make sure you connect with me on my author’s facebook page for more updates!  Feel free to comment below I would love to hear some fun facts about you!

I Wait For Your Voice.

I wait for your voice but all I can hear is all the voices around me saying do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go, what you want me to do, who you want me to be, I want to know you Lord. So I wait for your voice but all I keep hearing is the noise of sirens, of cries, of yelling, of war, of heart break, but I will wait, I wait for your voice but now all I can hear is my own voice accompanied by my thoughts screaming, you’re not enough, you’re never going to be in the right place, you’re never going to be complete, you’re never going to be healed, you’re never going to be unbroken, you’re never going to reach your full potential, and you’re going in the wrong direction. My voice says turn right, no turn left, no go straight, no go back, no just stand still but through all of this I wait. I wait for your voice because all I want to know is where you want me to go, what you want me to do, and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord. So I will learn to be still,I will learn to block out the noises, and the voices of the world, I will learn to challenge and block out the self doubting thoughts. I will block out the do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go Lord, what you want me to do and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord, so I will wait for your voice.

Trust in the Lord God with all your heart.
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Seeking God…..

As I sat there in my chair, feet on the floor hands sitting on my lap, I began to look around and let me mind wander as the preacher spoke. I can’t pinpoint the exact moment or what exactly was said but suddenly I felt guilt overwhelm my body. I began to reflect on my life and think about how and if my actions within the last week and in general honored God. I began to feel ashamed of myself as I thought back on my recent actions. I want God in my life. I want my complete existence, who I am and my actions to honor him and align with his word. I seek to know God but it’s as if I have been standing still and instead of embracing his love, grace, and mercy, I have been embracing my anxiety/fears, my illness and my broken heart.  Embracing these have caused me to stop seeking God and instead become at a standstill. So many times we get so engrossed with the things of this world we lose sight of what’s really important. The thing I have failed to see while embracing these things is that God can heal every single one of them, but I have yet to lay it down at his feet. Instead i’ve been holding on to these three things with a death grip. Somewhere in all this mess I became convinced these things are what I was and in a way who I was. I was anxiety/fear, my illness and my broken heart. I realized I was taking my identity from these things and not letting God have them. Who would want to hold on to this type of pain right ? The thing is we all do it all the time, we think we can fix things or we can change things, but God has the last say in every situation. I recently wrote a prose titled doubt (that will be in my upcoming memoir, release date coming soon) and it explains my personal story of how I began to doubt God and if I would ever be healed and I just doubted what God could do in my life. I got to a point where I felt I didn’t deserve to be better , I believed I didn’t deserve to be okay and maybe this is where doubt began to creep into my heart. For me I am ashamed of my doubt and there is no excuse for it, but when you come to what you think is the end of your rope, one may begin to give up hope and that’s exactly what I did. If hopelessness consumes me I will remain at this standstill. All our journeys are different, and God has a plan for each one of us. Don’t remain at a standstill in your life holding on to failures, dissappointments, past events, etc. Seek God in all you are and in all you do. Give your burdens to him. Easier said than done, believe me I know that all too well. Just know that there is more past the standstill point. 

Trusting in God.

Trust In You Cover 

This song is a beautiful reminder that though things in life may not go the way we want and we may have hundreds or even thousands of unanswered “why,” questions, trust God despite all that. He has a plan for your life & mine. I am so thankful and blessed God has given me a love and what I believe is a gift for both writing and singing. I am thankful I can use both these gifts to not only help motivate, uplift and inspire people, but most importantly praise God and spread the good news about Jesus Christ ! Blessings

Love God & Love People.

Click on the name of song above to listen to the cover I did of Lauren Daigle’s Trust in You.