Guess What?

Hello Lovelies & Happy Friday !!!! TGIF right ? What does everyone have planned for the weekend? I hope it’s something where you all can relax and decompress from a long week !


I think my 1st plan for this Friday morning is to take Lil (my pup) to starbucks with me to get a plain coffee with soy milk in it ! I simply have to find the energy to get up and do that though. 😅 Please keep me in your prayers. I am still tired, I went to bed superrrr late.


I also want to start on my 2nd book I am reading for the month but I have yet to do so. But I have been reading a new book titled Silence in the ibooks library that I find pretty interesting and scary because it deals with abuse and that kind of thing is so hard for me to read about due to things i’ve personally experienced. But the way the author tells the story so far is filled its plenty of detail and it explains how every action has a reaction. I really am starting to like reading non fiction better than fiction….. humm idk I’ll probably change my mind once I dive into another book!!! 📖 As corny as it may sound, reading is magical…. at least with some books….


To me this week has felt a bit longgggggggg as if it was dragging by! But thank God I got through it and I was blessed in various ways during this week and for that I can’t complain!


I also have a GREAT ANNOUNCEMENT for all of my awesome people who have been asking me about the paperback version of Colorless Love (—- CLICK ON TITLE for more info on purchasing your copy TODAY) and when it will be available for PURCHASE……..


WELP!!!! Guess what? You’ve guessed it the paperback version of Colorless Love along with the e-book is now available on Amazon! Happy reading & thank you for your support, patience, and feedback!

If you have already read the book, be sure to take time and leave me some feedback ! I love hearing from you all ! ❤️

Inspire.Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.
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Let me Just Say This….

psychadelic_headHello Hello my lovely subscribers ! I want to first start off by saying how sorry that I have been so neglectful when it comes to blogging lately. Let me tell you what has been up with m and what exactly i’ve been working on!


The last month of  my life has been hectic, eye-opening, and stressful. I was with my family on the other side of the country, I got my hair all shaved off, I was still finishing up work from my fall classes due to special circumstances, not to mention I just finished & published my 2nd book titled Colorless Love (NOW ON AMAZON)(CLICK TITLE TO PURCHASE YOUR COPY TODAY), and last but not least I am working on my memoir along with my “pitch deck” trying to decide if I am going to compete in a competition with my memoir in a few weeks at my school. As you can see I have been staying pretty busy I was spending lots of time with my family along with working and having more than 1 late night ! On top of all this I have also been dealing with various mental illness symptoms, which has been difficult at some moments but I made it through. The more I accept myself the easier it will become to cope, I hope…….


Lately, I have noticed myself vlogging quite a bit and posting it on my youtube page along with singing on my karaoke applications on my phone!  I think it’s the fact that I have been trying to find healthy ways to express myself, distract myself, that I have been so concentrated on vlogging and singing! They have been pretty good stress relievers honestly. Below you will find the vlogging series I have been working on!


 

 

PART III is now uploaded on my YOUTUBE CHANNEL

(CLICK ON NAME –) :Words Ar3 Art    


Side Note:  Part III of this series is my favorite vlog so far , because how vulnerable and honest I am about how events in my life have affected the way I view myself and how I answer the question what is beauty to me. So be sure to check it out ! Also be sure to check out some of my fun 50 second to 1 minute fun singing videos ! ❤ (most of them are acapella, because why not)


Thanks for reading everyone ! ❤ Happy Friday !!!


 

*I do not own the 1st photo above.


 

 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

Introduction to Author Natasha R. Minier 💚

I wanted to take a moment & say hello 👋 to all my new & old subscribers !💋💓


I am Natasha but some ppl call me Nat & my family calls me Tash. I am 24 years old & my page Facebook.com/natashaminier documents my journey with mental illness along with giving updates on my upcoming memoir, my book Words Are Art: See The World Through My Eyes & Colorless Love (BOTH BOOKS ARE NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON ), my weekly blog posts and sometimes random singing videos or vlogs.


My goal is to inspire others with my story and be a voice to all the people that have been suffering in silence. 💡🤐 I am young but I have been through tragedies I would never wish on another human being and I hope through my journey others will know they are not alone. 🌎🌻🌼 Mental health matters and I want to show my family, loved ones, & others I don’t know personally know just how devastating symptoms can be. The truth is we need to talk about mental health with one another and end the stigma. We need to show others it’s okay to speak out and SEEK HELP, ATTEND THERAPY, TAKE MEDS, etc. The people struggling with mental health issues need to know it is okay to do whatever you need to do to take care of your mental health. There is no need to be ashamed. You are NOT WEAK BECAUSE YOU SEEK HELP. You are BRAVE! REMEMBER THAT. We need to show more LOVE to the people like me, that struggle day in and day out with mental illness symptoms. I don’t exactly understand everything about my illnesses and despite the fact I have bad days, I will use everything I have for good & to change the world. 🗺 Love is the greatest gift you can give others and I will use every talent God has blessed me with & every piece of my energy to spread love, even on my bad days.💚


I wanted to say THANK YOU to you all for subscribing and taking your time to read my work! I appreciate all the likes & feedback! ❤️


Feel free to MESSAGE AND CONNECT WITH ME ANYTIME !

IG: wordsar3art

FB: Facebook.com/natashaminier

Snapchat: Natrobbie21

Twitter: Nattiee_101


This is a journey for me & I am confident God will get me through whatever may come & he will get you through too ! Let’s raise awareness about mental illness together !


Inspire. Motivate. Love ❤️

~ Natasha R. Minier


Surprise ANNOUNCEMENT …

If you have been reading my blogs, posts on my Instagram, or my Facebook posts on my author’s page for the past few months then you are aware how much I have been struggling and dealing with different symptoms caused by having mental illness, along with hospitalizations, discrimination, depression, self-harm etc. Through all that I have been fighting daily to try to stay balanced and on a path of wellness that honors God, myself, my morals, and to get into a mindset where I am showing plenty of love to myself & those around me. One of my biggest goals of 2017 was getting 2 books written and available for others to read. Unfortunately, I have felt so trapped and incapable of doing things, I came to a standstill when working on both my upcoming Memoir & Colorless Love and I was convinced I never would finish them because of all the chaos happening in my mind and in my life………..


BUT I AM SO HAPPY TO ANNOUNCE THAT MY 2nd book is on AMAZON.COM & is available for PURCHASE TODAY at the LINK BELOW !!!!!!!!

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Click to Purchase your copy of Colorless Love 

Description Below:

Colorless Love NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON


 I was so hesitant on when I should post about my new book, because lord’s willing my memoir will be out an available for purchase January 1st, 2018 , and I wanted to release both books at the same time. But I figured it’s Christmas and why not post on my blog today about Colorless Love ? It has been a lot and I do mean a lot, of tears, of longggg nights, and of just plain stress. Despite all this, I am so happy to be able to have finished my second book and have it available for you all to purchase! I hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy being able to share it with you! May it inspire you to LOVE MORE and JUDGE LESS !


Thank you so much for reading my work, take a few moments click on the above link to check out a sample of the book and happy reading ! (:



Merry Merry Christmas Everyone and I hope everyone is spending time connecting with family and making memories! Please keep me in your prayers and I will do the same for all of you ! Blessings always !


Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

No Suffering in Silence.

Falling to pieces………Drowning in sorrow….Staring at a unworn cross necklace……Holding back the hate, disgust, and mixed emotions I feel towards myself and the world. Thoughts of self – harm, razor in hand, thoughts of death plague me. Numbness….. Ready to go, climb back in my box, in my zone and sort out the broken pieces of my life, sort of the broken pieces of me. Processing losing loved ones to the justice system & others who walked away, big decisions to make. The world never stops turning, no matter how much pain I’m in. It doesn’t stop spinning,let you regroup, figure out your issues then continue on. No, you must regroup while the world and time continue to move. My thoughts are running in circles. Take the meds they say. Pray they say. Believe this they say. Cope they say. Take it a day at a time they say. Believe God will get you through this they say. My thoughts are lost…..I’m lost. Depression has a grip on me so tight I honestly really don’t know if it will ever let go, or if I will be “weak” as they say and succumb to it and let it have me. I could never do that, right ? I really don’t know anymore. Who cares ? Never feeling good enough. Never feeling like anything I do is good enough. Lost. Lonely. Cold. Frustrated. Aggravated. Confused. Sad. Mad. Optimistic..and empty. No one and I mean no one seems to get it and the worse my symptoms and thoughts get the more I shut the world off from me. They won’t understand. They won’t accept me. I don’t want to deal with others when I am unstable & in pain. No friends. No family … just me and Lil🐾 and even she deserves better than me. There doesn’t seem to be answers in the places I have been looking. There seems to be nothing but emptiness that continues to fill me. When I close my eyes I see darkness, a place where I want to hide.


Please refrain from commenting on this post.


Thanks for taking time and reading my journey ! It is what it is, and life just sucks sometimes .

Drawing New Lines.

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I didn’t draw new lines because I wanted to break rules and go against everything I once believed in. I am deciding to draw new lines in my life because I am sick and tired of trying to fit (my colors) who I am into the “lines” aka expectations I felt others put on me, and even the ones I put on myself. I have caused myself to remain coloring inside the same old lines, because I felt I was doing the best I could for myself.


I am sick and oh so very tired of trying to “fit in,” by being everything I think everybody else wants or needs me to be. Living a life to simply please other people just to not be alone is no longer worth it. I have found many people do this & it is a miserable life to live. When I am up in the middle of the night & can’t sleep, or I’m crying for hours, self harming, in the hospital, just overall NOT OKAY. Not one of those people who I tried, for so long to “keep my color inside the lines for” is anywhere to be found. So the question is why have I/we been wasting time on people who simply want us to conform to who and what they feel we should be ? WHAT ?


I could just scream today because I am sick of others telling me who or what I am or who or what I should be.


You are sensitive, Don’t be so weak, You are lazy, it’s so hard to be your friend, dealing with you and with your mental illness is too much, I don’t love you, I am not willing/capable to give you what you want/need, (Mental Illness), “Oh I can’t relate.” I will NEVER be able to understand mental illness, or those times where I tried to open up about my mental illness symptoms and I was literally ignored or the subject was changed …………


You know what I am so ashamed of myself, the same people who said those things 👆🏽(Up there)to me I tried to convince them why I was worth it their time. I tried to convince them how I could be who they wanted me to be. I attempted to convince why they should stay in my life and be my friend, associate, and sadly even my husband and ultimately I tried to convinced them why I was worth being in their life.


Me convincing them and conforming (keeping my coloring in the lines) to who or what I they wanted me to be worked, for a while. But then they ended up feeling exactly what they had said to me initially and they ended up leaving my life in one way or another. Whether I cut them off because I found out the relationship was unhealthy for my mental health or some other reason.


Looking back on it, it honestly seems like all of those relationships negatively affected my well-being and mental health, and as painful as it has been to have my life fall apart friends gone, x hub gone. I was tired of coloring in the lines.


I have grown tired of being what I everyone else wants me to be, so now I will live my life being who I feel God wants me, sticking to my morals, and being honest about my mental health. No more hiding, no more convincing people why I’m a diamond in the rough (like my mom says) if you can’t see it then you must not belong in my life.


I am making a commitment to myself, no more coloring in the lines aka conforming to what/who others tell me they want me to be. I’m not perfect and I have many flaws but no one,not me, not you should be changing themselves just to have friends, a bf,gf, husband,wife,etc because it’s not worth it and it’s exhausting.


Don’t hide yourself, your mental illness symptoms, your self harm scars, your tears, your anxiety, those are what make you, you. and something’s are out of our control. We must cope & surround ourselves with people who we don’t have to hide our imperfections from and say we are okay when NOTHING’S OKAY.


Surround yourself with people that love you despite your flaws and imperfections. Surround yourself with people who won’t call you names, who won’t make jokes about mental illness or treat you differently once they find out you have mental illness, or make you feel unwanted, unloved and like a burden, or look down on you for the self harm scars on your legs/arms/etc


Surround yourself with people who will love you with no boundaries & who will love you for you because you are worth it and so am I.❤️😘


 

Inspire.Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

* I don’t own this photo.*

Grounding Technique.

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Grounding techniques can be such an amazing coping tool to pull out of your toolbox to help you fight back against your mentalilness symptoms.


Honestly, I started learning about grounding techniques earlier this year (2017)(if I am remembering correctly) and they have helped me at school, during heated arguments, during emotion overload, during moments when I am so anxious I’m shaking, or I feel like I may pass out or just screammmmm, and even during moments I am contemplating self-harming.


Grounding techniques help me to jump back into what is going on around me so that I am able to, get out of my head, out of my thoughts, out of my misery, and it really helps just put me back into reality. It diverts my attention to the here and now. Specifically, what has worked for me is during these times of extreme stress when I am experiencing mental illness symptoms I immediately start touching something (ex. a wall, a table,a shelf,etc) then I began explaining the texture, color, shape to myself either out loud or in my head. During this time I am also making sure I am breathing (I tend to hold my breath & not breathe when I am in pain, anxious, angry, scared,etc). I continue touching different objects around me and explaining them to myself until I am back at a 0 with my anxiety,anger,etc ,and I am able to effectively function.


I know that the way I explained it may sound “easy peezy,” but let me be the first to tell you there is nothing easy about this. In those moments it’s hard to ground yourself( at least it has been for me). So much seems to be going on in those moments and it’s difficult to get yourself grounded.


I think as human beings we all get overwhelmed in one way or another with things going on in our lives and knowing what techniques work for you during those very stressful moments can help your mental health and your overall well-being. So find out what techniques and other coping skills work for you to help you manage your stress or mental health symptoms. I am still learning what works for me. The path to recovery & wellness is a long and hard journey and tools like this help to make it that much easier for me to use healthy ways to handle stressors. ❤


Also if you are looking for some easy to do coping activities check out the pop up subscription box, subscribe and I will send you a free video guide on some very easy to do coping activities!


breathe


 *I do not own photos*

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.