I Wait For Your Voice.

I wait for your voice but all I can hear is all the voices around me saying do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go, what you want me to do, who you want me to be, I want to know you Lord. So I wait for your voice but all I keep hearing is the noise of sirens, of cries, of yelling, of war, of heart break, but I will wait, I wait for your voice but now all I can hear is my own voice accompanied by my thoughts screaming, you’re not enough, you’re never going to be in the right place, you’re never going to be complete, you’re never going to be healed, you’re never going to be unbroken, you’re never going to reach your full potential, and you’re going in the wrong direction. My voice says turn right, no turn left, no go straight, no go back, no just stand still but through all of this I wait. I wait for your voice because all I want to know is where you want me to go, what you want me to do, and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord. So I will learn to be still,I will learn to block out the noises, and the voices of the world, I will learn to challenge and block out the self doubting thoughts. I will block out the do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go Lord, what you want me to do and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord, so I will wait for your voice.

Trust in the Lord God with all your heart.
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Headphones in, Pencil in Hand, Notebook Ready….

I’ve been writing quite a bit lately, but I’ve posted none for my readers or subscribers. Sometimes I really do get lost in my notebook, and I just almost detach from the outside world. A good amount if not all of the material I have been writing lately will be included in my upcoming book.

 My upcoming book will contain some of the most heart wrenching and personal  moments I have experienced. 

Below you will find an excerpt from my UPCOMING BOOK : 

I  somehow convinced myself that things were different. Things had to be different, therefore the love I needed was also different. These statements are incorrect. My mind, body, and soul crave different. Different behavior patterns. Different outcomes.Different feelings. I just wanted different. I wanted different but for me things haven’t been different. I’ve covered and filled my emptiness and lack of belonging with a list of to do’s, I’ve covered it with laughter and smiles  that sometimes don’t even penetrate past the surface, to even begin to mend my broken  heart or fill the emptiness. If I take the meds and do everything I am supposed to do,then why does everything still feel the same ? Why has different fled from me? All I keep going through are the same symptoms and same feelings but all I want is different. I want change. But I have yet to get either. 

Release date coming soon !

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Birthday, Challenges, & Positivity !

So very thankful I have made it to see another birthday. This last year has been such a challenge for me, but despite that today I can say is going to be a good day for me! I am going to smile and have lots of laughs. I decided to make a birthday slideshow of the past two weeks with my mom while she was visiting ! I am looking forward to a wonderful year of helping others, publishing my new books, moving to start at a new school and just overall starting this next chapter in my life ! I pray that God guides me heart always ! Happy Birthday to me and happy Friday to everyone !!! Be blessed and remember God loves you!!!!

Back To Reality…..

Every once in a while it’s like I need a jolt back into reality and at that point I’m already way past gone . I’m usually so far in my mind I’m losing grip of the world around me . It’s like every once in a while I need a break from living or existing , a break to just catch up with the world and do and be everything I’m supposed to be plus everything positive every one else expects me to be. The day that my mind permanently catches up with my body will be the day I get true closure.

Side Effects …..

I have been so busy with my daily life I haven’t even made time to write on my blog. I’ve been writing in my handy dandy notebook every other day or so, but I just haven’t posted. Lately, I have felt nothing but emptiness, excitement, fear, and regret. I bet you’re wondering how in the world can emptiness and excitement be felt at the same time….. Honestly, I can’t even begin to explain these feelings nor do I care to explain why I think these feelings are present inside of me. What I will say is these are simply side effects, side effects of taking on a new approach to life……

Means of Escape.

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I started this blog because I have lost touch with my passion, which is writing.Writing has allowed me to express myself and put things in new perspectives. I like to write poems, papers, stories, etc. Funny thing is when I was a kid I even attempted to write songs.   I guess I had to find a way to put words together to explain feelings, events, and the world around me,to an extent. Writing has been a means of escape for me during hard times and I have really grown to appreciate it. I am planning to pour love and awesomeness into all my posts! I hope you all enjoy. Don’t forget to hit the subscribe button !Be blessed always and remember God is a good good father who loves you more in one moment than anyone else could in a lifetime.

Signed,

Nat Min 🙂

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