Mental Health Awareness…

Hello beautiful people & Happy Saturday! How is your Saturday going ? Are you getting  a lot done ? Are you relaxing at the beach? Are you spending a day with family? Or are you binging on a show on Netflix you found? Whatever you are doing today, I hope this post finds you well. I would like to take a moment and give you some insight on what I am up to.


So,  I am currently working on a project involving something I am sure you all know at this point, I am passionate about….. Mental Health and Mental Illness.

I am so passionate about these things not only because of the stigma around it, and how uninformed I feel people are, but because I suffer from mental illness.

Please if you haven’t already spare 1-2 minutes to take this quick survey and help me make a DIFFERENCE!


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Thank you all for the time you take to read my work, your love & support !

” To truly be myself is to be vulnerable. Everyone is going to have their own opinions of my condition and me sharing the fact I have been diagnosed and am receiving treatment for various mental illnesses. I have fought this battle for a while now. There have been many many times I felt alone and disconnected from my family and the world. I figured no one would understand my depression, my manias, my triggers,etc so I isolated and still do. This is just a part of my story and my journey that I want to share with others that may know someone who may be going through the same thing. Reach out to them, let them know they are not alone. Don’t judge, make jokes, or assume things you don’t know, stop judging people simply by what you see. We all have a story behind our smiles, and we are all just people. I am a person that wants to make a difference, I don’t care if it makes me look weak, fragile, or if people look down on me. I am tired of it, I am ready to take a stand and do something different, so people can become more informed about just how important mental health is, and how REAL AND DEVASTATING mental illness can be. If you are suffering in silence, please get help, you are not alone. I see you. I know your pain is real. ”

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.


 

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The Bracelet and The Unaccepted Words

You have to know that you are good enough and worth it. Once you master belief in yourself no one can steal that love from you. 

~ Alex Elle


I sat in class hearing different voices speak. I sit straight up in my chair, so I am not slouching and paying for it later on, when my back is hurting. As I sit straight up, keeping posture in mind, I look down at my black ripped jeans and my bright-colored pink shirt. I sigh. My attention quickly shifts, in the corner of my eye,I catch a glimpse of my silver Pandora bracelet hanging from my left arm. I turn the bracelet around so the charms are laying on my wrist where I can see them. Immediately, I look at the silver  heart charm and read it, you are so loved . I pay close attention to the letters and words, and read it again,whispering to myself, “you are so loved.” . On the charm, the word you has a heart where the letter o is, and some of the letters are written in cursive. It was like I was seeing these words on the charm for the first time.  I swallow. You see, this silver heart charm was the first charm I had on my bracelet. 5 months earlier, my parents bought me the charm for my birthday. These 4 words were the words I stared at the most, but it didn’t matter. No matter how hard I fought, no matter how much I read those words. I couldn’t believe them.


My mind denied the words over and over again. As much as I wanted to believe with every part of my mind, body, and soul, I wasn’t sure if I would ever be able to. Me loved? Oh that doesn’t matter, I thought. Voices outside my head began distracting me from my thoughts, I snapped back into the present, and continued to listen to the voices that filled the classroom. I looked around, grabbed my pink notebook off the wooden table, got out of my seat, and exited the room as quickly as my feet would move. I looked down the hallway searching for a place to sit and relax for a moment, and there it was. A black leather chair I could sit in,relax, and collect myself by further investigating my thoughts. I walked to the chair and sat down. I opened my pink notebook and began writing, trying to make sense of my previous thoughts.


Y❤u are so loved, I thought. But am I really, I asked myself ? Too bad for me, I didn’t have spare time to actually be sitting here wasting time doing what I love, dissecting my thoughts through writing. I  needed to be back in class. I took a deep breathe, got up, and began to walk back to the classroom. I looked down one last time and read the words, you are so loved. I continued to walk. I questioned myself further as I walked down the hallway, when will I believe ? I opened the classroom door, walked back to my seat, and began to let my thoughts wander on the words I couldn’t accept. My professor’s voice began to fill the room once again and class went on.


The words you are so loved, cause my mind to fill with thoughts of uncertainty. Why were these words so hard for me to accept? Why did this concept seem impossible for me to understand? The thought that someone actually loved me, seemed like it didn’t matter. I was convinced that loving others was most important, but what about others loving me? Or even more important what about me loving myself?  It is as if, I have built a wall with a door around my heart. I open the door to pour love out where and when I am able to. But the moment someone tries to give love back to me I close the door, and I close my heart. The thought of me never accepting those 4 words, haunts me.




I hope everyone is doing awesome this week ! I would love to hear about everyone’s week ? What fun things do you have planned for the weekend? I will be doing homework and hopefully more writing ! I’ve missed blogging ❤ !


Thank you for taking time to read my blog & my work! Be sure to get your copy of  Words Are Art: See The World Through My Eyes if you haven’t already !


Please if you haven’t already be sure to complete this quick 1-2 minute survey below titled Awareness, I would love to hear your feedback !


Thank you to all my AMAZING subscribers and family who have shown so much support and love!


Inspire. Motivate. Love 

Natasha M.

Redefining Art, Bad Habits, and a Survey

Hello my beautiful subscribers & readers, how has everyone been ? Busy I am sure, getting things done and living.


I noticed days ago that I have not blogged in about a month,how sad is that ? Well for me it’s very sad. Writing is my love, it’s one of the ways I live, express myself and embrace living. The more I skip blogging not only am I more stressed, but it seemed to get  easier  for me to keep not doing it. Bad habits are so easy to form, but even harder to break, have you noticed that ? 


I have been learning and attempting to take in so much new information in school and I’ve been writing in my notebooks but avoiding blogging. Isn’t it weird the things we notice ourselves doing? Unfortunately, by the time we catch the problem it’s so far gone that by that time, we’ve formed a new bad habit.


Today I decided to dive right back into blogging, and forgive myself that I haven’t blogged for a month. I have experienced quite a bit in the last few weeks, so let me fill you in. Lots of homework that is for sure and writing nonfiction papers ( my favorite)! I also got to see a new even bigger fair than the one I showed you all in a blog previously, it was cool but involved lots of walking! I also switched a few things in my upcoming memoir that I think will really help readers get a better perspective of what I have experienced. I’ve tried some new vegan restaurants, went snorkeling, traveled to catalina island, and one of the best things of all I got to visit my family this past weekend and it was so nice to get time with my mommy.  Things have been so sad and busy for me lately I am so thankful I was able to take a few days to go visit! It is always necessary to take time to BREATHE and eat some vegan food! haha My mom officially loves kombucha now! Have you ever tried kombucha? Or heard of it? If so, do you like it?


I have been reading this book titled Artisan Soul for my Christianity and Creative Processing class. Have you ever read it? If not you should. The author Erwin McManus is an amazing writer. In this book,  McManus brings up some really good points that have inspired me to write not only because we were required to for homework, 😅 but because it spoke to me. Below I shared two quotes I picked out and responded to.


         Artisan Soul: Page 3 “No matter where we are, we live in a world of artists.”

A lot of time we don’t realize that, we are more creative than we give ourselves credit for. Everyone is an artist in their own way. When people hear the word artist, most of us immediately think of a person doing some type of art. People don’t seem to consider how much we create to handle everyday situations. We create problems, solutions, questions, ideas, etc. Not everyone is a painter, dancer, actor, writer, etc. but we all create. This statement furthered my definition and outlook of what an artist is. I realized creating makes you an artist. Create opportunities to spread love. Create new ways to look at a common issue. Create a new way to define something. Creating is what having an artisan soul is all about.


Have you ever thought about what “art” is to you? Do you believe you are an artist & you create?


This class has been so eye-opening. It really has challenged me to want to create more, approach art with a new set of eyes, and it has helped me to redefine what creativity and art can be.

It was so good to finally blog ! Don’t worry, you will hear from me soon, lord’s willing! Below find some pictures of me and my family from this past weekend !

 In the meantime I am doing a project and I would love to hear feedback! If you didn’t receive the Mental Health Awareness survey in your email please help me out and take the survey by clicking the word 👉🏽 Awareness 👈🏽!

Have an amazing Wednesday ! ☀️❤️ Be blessed & find a reason to smile today !

Inspire, Motivate, Love ~Natasha M.

 

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My little sister, my mommy, & me

Smile Today.

Hey beautiful Subscribers ! How is everyone? It seems like it’s been a long time since I last posted. The last two weeks have been a bit hectic between attending classes, homework, new friends, moving, getting settled, chapel services, adding/ dropping classes, etc things have been pretty busy for me. I am so thankful to be sitting down and taking some time to write.


Can’t forget to take that time to BREATHE and do some SELF-CARE. What kind of things have you done this week for self-care ? I am sure some of  you are probably thinking that, I talk A LOT about self-care. I talk A LOT about it because it is very important to me and it’s something that I want us all to remember to do. Also, talking about it in my blogs makes me hold myself more accountable and I hope it does the same for you or even more .


I don’t know about you but usually when I am faced with a new situation I am a little  nervous.


I sat there in the library, I stared around. I looked at books, I looked at my computer screen and lastly I looked at my reflection in the window. Wow, I thought to myself I need to get to work and rearrange my schedule. I logged onto the website and began searching through my class requirements, it took me a while but I ended up finding a class that matched what I was looking for. I added myself to the class successfully.

The next day arrived. I was nervous but excited to go to this class which happened to be a creative writing class. I got there early and I looked around and found my class. In the hallway beside my classroom there were students waiting. I began talking to them asking them if they were going into the class I was and I also asked their majors.


To my surprise, GUESS WHAT their majors were? drum roll please…… ENGLISH.

So I was not only in the right place for class, but I had met some English majors! Before I knew it, it was time to go into class. I not only got to write for this class but I also got to see my professor’s book cover for his upcoming book!


As class moved along, at some points I didn’t know what was going on, due to it being my first day. In spite of not knowing what was being talked about at some moments, this class session was one of the highlights of my week ! To get to do what I love, be taught how to improve, and to be able to explore writing in a different way, is exciting! I felt calm and content after class ended for the day, it’s as if that was where I was supposed to be all along. This feeling made me feel that despite everything I’ve been feeling lately everything was going to be fine. Maybe God wanted me in one place but it’s like I was going everywhere but where he wanted me.



 

My Journey With Writing :

My memory as a small child is in bits and pieces, I don’t remember exactly what age I wrote my first poem, song , or story. However, I do remember trying to write poems and songs at about age 11 or so.  During this time I didn’t realize how much writing would steal my heart. I grew up and continued to go through the motions and obstacles of life and writing was put on the back burner. Don’t get me wrong I wrote for class papers, projects, etc but free writing I don’t remember doing as high school moved along. It was pretty rare that I did. High school came and went and I graduated. Writing  didn’t come back into my life for good until, after I joined the military and it began to pull on my heart-strings. Writing became a way for me to express my true thoughts and feelings with words. At the time writing helped me to describe the pain I was in, dealing with anxiety and the death of a loved one. Writing became my go to and it freed my mind in ways that nothing else at the time could do. Writing became my comfort, it became a thing I could run to, where I could hide from the troubles of this life. My notebook was a place where I could be whoever I wanted, whenever I wanted to. As I have gotten older and been dealing with an illness for the last four years writing has become a part of me and who I am. I couldn’t imagine myself not writing. Writing has become my way to connect with and spread love to others. Writing has become the way I make sense of the world. Writing has become me.


The older I get the more I realize I enjoy creating things, it keeps my mind busy. Creating a to do list, creating a new writing, creating a new book idea, creating a new blog, creating a way to connect with people and spread love. Create, create, create. I have grown to enjoy and participate in different forms of art! (ex. acting, singing,painting). Do you have a certain type of art that you enjoy?


Thank you for reading and letting me share my journey with you !


“Nothing is as important as passion. No matter what you want to do with your life, be passionate.” – Jon Bon Jovi


 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

Farewell To My Summer and The Place I Called Home 

Time was ticking away….. The sun was up and it was getting close for the time for me to get going. I continued to sit in my chair silently and let my thoughts wonder. Immediately, my thoughts went to summer ending, and how it all seem to just happen so fast. The summer had come to an end, and I was now living in an unfamiliar environment & attending school. My thoughts of the unknown remained.


Suddenly, my mind began going through my memories of the summer & all the work I went through writing essays, mailing transcripts , making phone calls researching & applying to schools, traveling to the east coast, dying and cutting my hair,etc. I continued going through my memories as if it was a slide show, one memory after the other. As I started traveling back in time in my mind, I began to laugh out loud. One of the funniest memories I remember is in May, when me and my mom were at the beach and my mom put her toe in bird 💩 thinking it was a seashell. 😂 🌊


So many times we get so caught up in thinking about the future, we aren’t mindful of the present. Sometimes we fail to just reflect on the memories we have. So, I decided to make a slide show of some of my beautiful 2017 summer memories for myself & to share with you all. What is your favorite memory from your 2017 summer? 


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​Summer seems like it flew by now that I look back on it. Geez, my first week at my new school is already over !!! Overall, I am thankful for my adventures and the time I got to spend with my family over the summer! I was so happy my mom was able to fly out twice to see me this summer ! We had a good time at Welcome Weekend last weekend! Words can’t describe how lucky I am to have her as my mom !


Over this summer through learning more and experiencing difficulties , I have grown. God has really been working on my heart and mind and I pray he continues to do so. I am expecting this semester to be an adventure and a struggle !


I guess I can officially say  “Farewell To My Summer and The Place I Called Home, it’s time for the next chapter of my story.”



Happy Friday & thanks for reading ! God loves you !


 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

Wednesday !!!

Hello beautiful people ! Happy Wednesday !!! How is your week going ? Have you finished any big projects or reached any of the goals you set for yourself at the beginning of the week? Or have you already started thinking about your weekend plans? It’s interesting for me to think about the fact that it is already Wednesday !  This week is passing by so quickly! Where did the time go ? For me the time was stretched out between sleeping (despite I still feel like I haven’t even had close to enough), packing my stuff for the move, errands, phone calls & text/Facebook message exchanges with family & friends, and oh yeah blogging along with all my other creative activities (ex. drawing, singing, working on vlogs, etc).


The move is on Friday and it will be here before I know it and unfortunately,  I have a lot of things on my to-do list to finish up. Do any of you make a written out to do list at the beginning of each week or at the beginning of each day? Or do you just program everything on your calendar in your phone ? Personally, I prefer the old-fashioned way, I like having a planner/notebook to manually write my lists instead of counting on my electronic devices to do all the work. I actually heard writing things down can be beneficial to memory. Check out some articles below about how writing things down may benefit you!


How is Writing Things Down Related to Memory Article References:

  1. Writing and Remembering: Why We Remember What We Write
  2. Why Using Pen And Paper, Not Laptops, Boosts Memory: Writing Notes Helps Recall Concepts, Ability To Understand
  3. 6 Psychological Benefits of Writing Things Down
  4. For More Effective Studying, Take Notes With Pen and Paper

Some pretty cool information in those articles huh? I hope you enjoy them and learn something new !




 Even through writing my to do lists and processing and attempting to cope with everything going on in my life, I realized that sometimes, we need a shake (literally) or just someone to tell us something (that “magical” word or phrase) ,to help us to realize things in our lives. Things that we may not be aware of, things we may be in denial about,  things we may be doing that aren’t right, things we may just need to look at from a different angle. I hope that my blogs and my work in general can be this for you, even if only a little bit. I hope they can challenge you to look in the mirror and assess yourself, your ideas , habits, your ways of thinking, while also helping you to gain a new outlook on subjects/issues we all may have to deal with.


The thing is, writing helps me not only get others thinking, but it also gets me thinking and looking over my life. Through doing this I can see how I can be a better friend, a better daughter, a better student, a better person, and most importantly a better follower of Christ. The truth is we need change in this world BIG TIME. We need less violence, racism,hatred, etc and more people opening their hearts to think differently, to see things differently, to love differently.  We need people to be different  in every way, so we can have more love. But this will only happen when we begin to be the change we want to see. It’s as simple as that. Love God & Love People.




The rest of my week will be spent tackling my to do lists, hopefully sleeping, connecting with family, waiting for my mom to arrive here, errands, creative projects, and making sure I am taking care of myself mentally, spiritually, and physically! Be sure you are taking care of yourself also !


I pray this blog finds you all well both physically and mentally on this Wednesday morning. I want you know that God loves us & Jesus died for our sins!

John 3:16 NIV For God so loved the world he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.


Have an awesome day!

Thanks for reading ! 


 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

 

Find a reason to smile today & everyday! ~ Natasha M

Smile June 2017

Finally…

Tidelands Park 2017


Finally a moment to sit & BREATHE, and still my thoughts seem to be going a thousand miles a minute. Seems like there has been so much to do with not enough time. Do you ever feel that way? Deadlines, expectations, etc (sigh) It’s life right? I guess it’s not really that there is not enough time, maybe we just give ourselves a lot to do in a day . Or is it poor planning on our part? or maybe it’s spending too much time on things that aren’t on our to do lists? or it’s not holding ourselves accountable for how much time we are spending on each task? or perhaps it’s a mixture of all these things? Who knows ?


Lately, I have been so busy with getting stuff ready to move I have noticed myself writing less and less over the last few days. I haven’t even been able to blog as much as I would like to. As the date of the move gets closer, I am filled with different emotions about different aspects of my life. It is really funny how we make plans in our lives but God ALWAYS has the final say. Surprisingly, I am excited to move despite the packing all my stuff and going through things, etc. I am just ready to be in a new place and start a new chapter in my life.


I’ve missed writing and feeling like I have time to spare. Recently even when I finish half the stuff on my to do list, I still feel like it wasn’t enough, and I want to do more. That is when fatigue begins to take over and it’s pretty hard to fight that but I try to, if only for a little while.  (Taking breaks when completing tasks is a must, even if it’s a 5 minute break. I haven’t quite mastered this skill myself yet, but when I do take breaks I feel better and more alert when I return to the task.)


No matter what happens life is constantly going, things are constantly happening. But like I stated in a blog a few weeks ago, we have to make sure we are taking that time to BREATHE and do some self-care. (So much easier said than done.) As I am sure you have gathered reading this blog, I have been neglecting my self-care lately.  Sometimes I get so caught up in doing stuff I forget about self- care and how important it is especially to me for certain health reasons.


Yesterday when I finally did get to BREATHE it was nice, to actually just let my self have a moment to just take pictures and enjoy the wind blowing, and the music going on in the background.  🎧   There’s nothing like taking time to take care of yourself physically, mentally , and spiritually !


Speaking of music, some of my go to tunes lately have been by Lauren Daigle. They have been uplifting for me. What are some of your go to tunes? What type of music do you like? I am planning to do a cover of one of her songs again soon! I did her Trust In You cover on a blog titled Trusting in God ! Check it out if you haven’t already !!!


 Over the next few weeks I am hoping to start a new series, give you the release date on my newest book that will be out in the next few weeks lord’s willing, and continue to share my journey with you ! You will hear from me soon !


3  Random Fun Facts About Me: (for my new subscribers)

  1. I have been transitioning to a vegan lifestyle for the last three weeks! I love it !
  2. I love to sing, write, and sometimes even paint !
  3. I currently have black, purple, and blue hair!

Thanks for reading. Feel free to comment with fun facts about yourself ! Thank you to all my subscribers who have been reading my work, about my journey, my struggles, and my truth. Writing is what gets me through the hard days and I wouldn’t have it any other way ! Love God & Love People.


Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.