The Bracelet and The Unaccepted Words

You have to know that you are good enough and worth it. Once you master belief in yourself no one can steal that love from you. 

~ Alex Elle


I sat in class hearing different voices speak. I sit straight up in my chair, so I am not slouching and paying for it later on, when my back is hurting. As I sit straight up, keeping posture in mind, I look down at my black ripped jeans and my bright-colored pink shirt. I sigh. My attention quickly shifts, in the corner of my eye,I catch a glimpse of my silver Pandora bracelet hanging from my left arm. I turn the bracelet around so the charms are laying on my wrist where I can see them. Immediately, I look at the silver  heart charm and read it, you are so loved . I pay close attention to the letters and words, and read it again,whispering to myself, “you are so loved.” . On the charm, the word you has a heart where the letter o is, and some of the letters are written in cursive. It was like I was seeing these words on the charm for the first time.  I swallow. You see, this silver heart charm was the first charm I had on my bracelet. 5 months earlier, my parents bought me the charm for my birthday. These 4 words were the words I stared at the most, but it didn’t matter. No matter how hard I fought, no matter how much I read those words. I couldn’t believe them.


My mind denied the words over and over again. As much as I wanted to believe with every part of my mind, body, and soul, I wasn’t sure if I would ever be able to. Me loved? Oh that doesn’t matter, I thought. Voices outside my head began distracting me from my thoughts, I snapped back into the present, and continued to listen to the voices that filled the classroom. I looked around, grabbed my pink notebook off the wooden table, got out of my seat, and exited the room as quickly as my feet would move. I looked down the hallway searching for a place to sit and relax for a moment, and there it was. A black leather chair I could sit in,relax, and collect myself by further investigating my thoughts. I walked to the chair and sat down. I opened my pink notebook and began writing, trying to make sense of my previous thoughts.


Y❤u are so loved, I thought. But am I really, I asked myself ? Too bad for me, I didn’t have spare time to actually be sitting here wasting time doing what I love, dissecting my thoughts through writing. I  needed to be back in class. I took a deep breathe, got up, and began to walk back to the classroom. I looked down one last time and read the words, you are so loved. I continued to walk. I questioned myself further as I walked down the hallway, when will I believe ? I opened the classroom door, walked back to my seat, and began to let my thoughts wander on the words I couldn’t accept. My professor’s voice began to fill the room once again and class went on.


The words you are so loved, cause my mind to fill with thoughts of uncertainty. Why were these words so hard for me to accept? Why did this concept seem impossible for me to understand? The thought that someone actually loved me, seemed like it didn’t matter. I was convinced that loving others was most important, but what about others loving me? Or even more important what about me loving myself?  It is as if, I have built a wall with a door around my heart. I open the door to pour love out where and when I am able to. But the moment someone tries to give love back to me I close the door, and I close my heart. The thought of me never accepting those 4 words, haunts me.




I hope everyone is doing awesome this week ! I would love to hear about everyone’s week ? What fun things do you have planned for the weekend? I will be doing homework and hopefully more writing ! I’ve missed blogging ❤ !


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Natasha M.

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Finally…

Tidelands Park 2017


Finally a moment to sit & BREATHE, and still my thoughts seem to be going a thousand miles a minute. Seems like there has been so much to do with not enough time. Do you ever feel that way? Deadlines, expectations, etc (sigh) It’s life right? I guess it’s not really that there is not enough time, maybe we just give ourselves a lot to do in a day . Or is it poor planning on our part? or maybe it’s spending too much time on things that aren’t on our to do lists? or it’s not holding ourselves accountable for how much time we are spending on each task? or perhaps it’s a mixture of all these things? Who knows ?


Lately, I have been so busy with getting stuff ready to move I have noticed myself writing less and less over the last few days. I haven’t even been able to blog as much as I would like to. As the date of the move gets closer, I am filled with different emotions about different aspects of my life. It is really funny how we make plans in our lives but God ALWAYS has the final say. Surprisingly, I am excited to move despite the packing all my stuff and going through things, etc. I am just ready to be in a new place and start a new chapter in my life.


I’ve missed writing and feeling like I have time to spare. Recently even when I finish half the stuff on my to do list, I still feel like it wasn’t enough, and I want to do more. That is when fatigue begins to take over and it’s pretty hard to fight that but I try to, if only for a little while.  (Taking breaks when completing tasks is a must, even if it’s a 5 minute break. I haven’t quite mastered this skill myself yet, but when I do take breaks I feel better and more alert when I return to the task.)


No matter what happens life is constantly going, things are constantly happening. But like I stated in a blog a few weeks ago, we have to make sure we are taking that time to BREATHE and do some self-care. (So much easier said than done.) As I am sure you have gathered reading this blog, I have been neglecting my self-care lately.  Sometimes I get so caught up in doing stuff I forget about self- care and how important it is especially to me for certain health reasons.


Yesterday when I finally did get to BREATHE it was nice, to actually just let my self have a moment to just take pictures and enjoy the wind blowing, and the music going on in the background.  🎧   There’s nothing like taking time to take care of yourself physically, mentally , and spiritually !


Speaking of music, some of my go to tunes lately have been by Lauren Daigle. They have been uplifting for me. What are some of your go to tunes? What type of music do you like? I am planning to do a cover of one of her songs again soon! I did her Trust In You cover on a blog titled Trusting in God ! Check it out if you haven’t already !!!


 Over the next few weeks I am hoping to start a new series, give you the release date on my newest book that will be out in the next few weeks lord’s willing, and continue to share my journey with you ! You will hear from me soon !


3  Random Fun Facts About Me: (for my new subscribers)

  1. I have been transitioning to a vegan lifestyle for the last three weeks! I love it !
  2. I love to sing, write, and sometimes even paint !
  3. I currently have black, purple, and blue hair!

Thanks for reading. Feel free to comment with fun facts about yourself ! Thank you to all my subscribers who have been reading my work, about my journey, my struggles, and my truth. Writing is what gets me through the hard days and I wouldn’t have it any other way ! Love God & Love People.


Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

 

 

Hello Weekend !!!

So far this weekend things have been a little hectic for me while trying to balance doing school work (final/homework) along with, working on others projects, preparing for my move/college transfer in a few weeks, and participating in the book signing event yesterday. Through all the things going on in my life, I am thankful I am able to just take a minute and just BREATHE. Sometimes we need that. We need to take a moment from our busy day-to-day schedules and just smell the roses, read a book, go to a movie, go for a jog, go to the beach, spend time with loved ones(without electronic devices) , read your bible, pray, or just do something  enjoyable that can free your mind from expectations, to do lists, due dates, etc. I have found this is much easier said than done, most of the time. It’s like no matter what happens in our lives, life keeps going, it’s almost as if there is no room to stop and BREATHE. Honestly we have to make that room because as humans beings we all experience fatigue and overwhelming things at one time or another in our lives. Let’s be honest, it is hard to function at our full capacity when we aren’t well rested and we feel overwhelmed/stressed. So this week and every week remain aware, hold yourself accountable to see if you are taking those moments to BREATHE. Set out that time to do something you enjoy! Something to recharge your mind,body, and spirit!


For me I feel as if I recharge in various ways ! One of my favorite ways to take my moment to BREATHE is by doing something I enjoy, like participating in events where I am able to connect with people.


Book Signing Event 8/5/17


Yesterday I participated in a book signing event ! It was an great experience and I am so thankful I got the opportunity to connect with people and share my work! I also got to give away free e-books to 3 lucky WINNERS !!! As I sat at my table with my books in front of me talking to people as they passed my table I realized something. I realized that at the end of everyday no matter what our occupation is, hobbies, status,beliefs,etc, we are all just people. Imperfect, bad habits, flaws and all, but just people. In today’s time life hits each one of us in different ways and we sometimes become so self-absorbed in our own issues and in ourselves we lose sight of all the beauty around us, along with all the beauty we can create. We can create beauty with a simple smile or hello, or just having a conversation with a stranger about something you may have in common. We have to look outside the box that we sometimes put ourselves in with our beliefs,ideas,or habits, etc and realize that we weren’t put here to live in a box  and only think one way and only see things one way. We were put here to love God & love people with our words,actions, and just everything we have, with everything we are. So many of us are losing sight of this and getting so focused on negativity and in things that DON’T MATTER. Talking and connecting with people yesterday made me just think and analyze things in my own life. It is so important to always keep your eye on your goals, but always keep your why in mind. Always know why you are doing what you are doing. Why are you trying to become an author? Why  are you trying to become a doctor? Why are you trying to become a counselor? Why ? What is your why? In answering the question of your why please keep in mind, money isn’t everything. As I said in my latest book Words Are Art money won’t buy you anything but THINGS. Don’t lose sight of your why. Losing sight of your why may cause you to get caught up in things that DON’T MATTER. Love God & love people let this be your why.


Overall, it was a great experience getting to share my journey and my work with others, and I can’t wait for the next event! I want to say THANK YOU A TON to all the lovely authors & people I got the pleasure of meeting and chatting with! Stay in touch! My memoir release date is coming soon !


Isabel & Natasha 8/5/17 Book Signing Event


While connecting with others yesterday, I also got the opportunity to meet and talk with some awesome authors! I am glad I finally got a signed copy of  The American Dream And Everything In Between   !!! (Click on the link to GET YOUR COPY TODAY & SEE BELOW for a description )

Description : Thousands of people have this dream of living in America but sometimes they have no idea what one goes through to live that dream. Immigration is a very important part of it and Isabel talks openly about her experience trying to find a job and in a way, gives you tips to fix some of the problems by just learning her story.


We make a living by what we get,but we make a life by what we give. ~ Winston Churchill

 

 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M. 

Thanks for reading ! Be Blessed !