Guess What?

Hello Lovelies & Happy Friday !!!! TGIF right ? What does everyone have planned for the weekend? I hope it’s something where you all can relax and decompress from a long week !


I think my 1st plan for this Friday morning is to take Lil (my pup) to starbucks with me to get a plain coffee with soy milk in it ! I simply have to find the energy to get up and do that though. 😅 Please keep me in your prayers. I am still tired, I went to bed superrrr late.


I also want to start on my 2nd book I am reading for the month but I have yet to do so. But I have been reading a new book titled Silence in the ibooks library that I find pretty interesting and scary because it deals with abuse and that kind of thing is so hard for me to read about due to things i’ve personally experienced. But the way the author tells the story so far is filled its plenty of detail and it explains how every action has a reaction. I really am starting to like reading non fiction better than fiction….. humm idk I’ll probably change my mind once I dive into another book!!! 📖 As corny as it may sound, reading is magical…. at least with some books….


To me this week has felt a bit longgggggggg as if it was dragging by! But thank God I got through it and I was blessed in various ways during this week and for that I can’t complain!


I also have a GREAT ANNOUNCEMENT for all of my awesome people who have been asking me about the paperback version of Colorless Love (—- CLICK ON TITLE for more info on purchasing your copy TODAY) and when it will be available for PURCHASE……..


WELP!!!! Guess what? You’ve guessed it the paperback version of Colorless Love along with the e-book is now available on Amazon! Happy reading & thank you for your support, patience, and feedback!

If you have already read the book, be sure to take time and leave me some feedback ! I love hearing from you all ! ❤️

Inspire.Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.
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What Defines You?

 A question I have always hated. The reason I’ve probably disliked it so much is because I never really knew the answer and I still don’t. I think I know what I want to define me…..


I have been so bogged down by can’t do and won’t dos I have lost sight of all the can do’s and all the things I have accomplished. It seems so easy to hold on to the negative aspects of our lives and let those things define us, especially if we feel guilty about those events.


Let’s be honest here, I have become so consumed with my failures and fear of failures it has began to overshadow my judgement. It has began to define me and that’s because I let it.


Last night as I sat catching up on school work, I came across a Ted Talks that blew my mind ( Link Below). Lizzie said everything in the video I needed to hear in just that moment. This is by far one of the BEST and most INSPIRATIONAL videos I’ve had the pleasure of watching !


I feel like I should rewatch it because you know what sometimes I just need someone who is going through a storm in their life too constantly just like me to make me question myself. Like what have I been doing? Fading away in misery ….. not caring about what happens to me or my life. Being silent. Being afraid to be myself…. Being afraid to be around people.  OMG I’ve put myself into a box and honestly I can’t get out of it.

Why have I stuck myself here? Why has anxiety, BPD, Bipolar and my PTSD lead me here?


The truth of the matter is, I let it lead me here, I’ve given up on others their lack of understanding, my faith is fading, my heart is growing cold, I am without love, I am without patience, and worst of all I’ve somewhat given up on myself. I am bitter. I am angry for everything I am and for everything I have become.


Interesting thing is in the below video Lizzie says something she use to wish she could scrub her syndrome off, and then her life would be better. You know I wish I could scrub my mental illness off, especially on my worse days. I wish I could wake up and not feel this anymore. I wish I could stop taking the meds. I wish it all would just stop……


But while I may have mental illness I do have some common sense, I know that’s not the way life works and it will never work that way.

I may be wrong but I believe a big difference between me and Lizzie is the fact I haven’t quite conquered the action of acceptance. I don’t know how. Is it me saying? I’m ill and that’s okay. I can’t say that, I can’t believe that. It’s not okay, the sadness hurts, I don’t like being like this……..  and it hasn’t been okay for a long time. On the other hand Lizzie has accepted her syndrome, and has learned to look at the positives aspects of it like you will see in the video below!


It is time for a new perspective because the way I am seeing things now is only distorting my view and hurting me more by worsening my conditions.


People like Lizzie, are so brave and courageous, and it melts my heart because I aspire to be more like her, and accept and overcome my illness. Though me and Lizzie deal with different types of “illnesses,” I connected so much with what she said. Her words, honesty, and willingness to share her journey had me in tears ! Make sure you watch this & be inspired ! ❤

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Inspire.Motivate. Love
~Natasha R. Minier

Mental Health Matters and This Is My Journey


I wake up some days and all I want to do is stay in bed or in one spot all day. My body wants one thing and my mind wants another. I feel down dealing with the depressive end of bipolar symptoms, I want to isolate from people, I don’t care about eating or doing self-care. I just want to stay in my misery and keep it to myself so I am not a burden to anyone else with my hopeless feelings or talk of how bad I feel.


So what right ? Everyone has their own battles to fight and I don’t want to make it seem like my issues with mental illness are more significant than anyone else’s problems. We all struggle and have battles to fight just in different ways and in different areas of our lives. Certain days my body says one thing and my mind says something else, and that was definitely the case today. My body felt tired but my mind started going and going. Days like today I can’t figure out where my body gets the energy or drive to go and just do, but I am thankful today was one of those days. As much as I wanted to just say blah, I didn’t. I was able to get up, clean a little bit, and exercise. I have/ am still learning to be grateful for those bright and beautiful moments like me having energy to do my makeup,straighten my hair, hang out with friends, go to class, brush my teeth, etc because I know when I experience escalated symptoms like I have been for the last few months and I feel lower than low these things seem like the hardest things ever to try to do.


I am so thankful that I was able to do some self-care not only for my physical well-being but also for my mental well-being . One moment at a time on the path to wellness, it hasn’t been a perfect journey thus far but it will be worth it. I am thankful for my victory today & I hope you take time to appreciate and acknowledge your victories too !


Inspire. Motivate. Love ~Natasha M.

Broken Arm and Depression.

true.


This is extremely sad and true. While it does seem people are more open to the “mental health” conversation now more than they probably were ten or even twenty years ago there still seems to be ALOT OF stigma.


This quote reminds me of a recent situation I experienced from another student at my school. I was treated differently once this student found out I had mental illness. The situation became so stressful I began to feel defective, like an outcast and a burden to the world.


But I wonder if I had a broken arm instead of mental illness would this student have discriminated against me still? Would they have said unnecessary things? Would they have been more empathetic? Would I have been singled out? Would things have been different ?


Sad to say but I am pretty sure they would have been different if I had a broken arm instead.
As much as these type of situations push us to want to repay evil for evil, we must NOT.


We must stick to our good morals & what we know is right despite how much pain we may feel. We must fight with good as hard as it may be.


I am so imperfect and I fought this battle with silence towards the individual that was doing the most discriminating. I fought with secret tears and rants to loved ones about what I did wrong and how I am so annoyed,angry, and stressed out I was over the whole situation. I also fought with hate, directed towards myself for being ill.  Keep in mind, I am no victim, so don’t get mistaken reading this. I don’t need or want a pity party, plenty of people deal with discrimination in even worse ways than I experienced it. This was just my first time I recall experiencing discrimination due to my mental illness, and it really sucked and was miserable. Discrimination is one thing when you can remove yourself immediately from the unhealthy situation, but it’s another thing when it’s day in and day out over a period of time.


I had to hear it over and over again from loved ones and friends that I was not the problem in the situation and still I didn’t believe it. The discrimination I was experiencing along with other stressors evoked a hate and despair in me I didn’t know existed. Hate, me? I love everyone, I thought. Everyone but MYSELF, I continuously wonder why have I hated myself for so long and why did this situation strengthen that hate. I believe it’s because I never thought I was good enough. From as far back as I can remember I seemed to always be messing up something, getting made fun of in school, or not meeting the expectations I set for myself.


As the situation continued at school, I thought to myself  if only I didn’t have mental illness I would have been treated better, I would have been accepted and there would have been no tension. Silly me, I knew deep down this wasn’t true, if discrimination was in a person’s heart then no matter what you do their true colors will most likely come out of them sooner or later.


Despite the discrimination I experienced I am going to get back on a path of wellness, continue writing my memoir and my creative non-fiction book , continue with school, and seek God.  One moment at a time, I can’t give up now, I am kind of sure my purpose on earth has not been fulfilled just yet.


I also STRONGLY believe #Mentalhealthmatters and that we as a society need to talk about it and stop judging and discriminating.

Let’s open our ears to listen and open our hearts to accept and embrace differences.


Inspire.Love & Motivate. Natasha M.

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Finally…

Tidelands Park 2017


Finally a moment to sit & BREATHE, and still my thoughts seem to be going a thousand miles a minute. Seems like there has been so much to do with not enough time. Do you ever feel that way? Deadlines, expectations, etc (sigh) It’s life right? I guess it’s not really that there is not enough time, maybe we just give ourselves a lot to do in a day . Or is it poor planning on our part? or maybe it’s spending too much time on things that aren’t on our to do lists? or it’s not holding ourselves accountable for how much time we are spending on each task? or perhaps it’s a mixture of all these things? Who knows ?


Lately, I have been so busy with getting stuff ready to move I have noticed myself writing less and less over the last few days. I haven’t even been able to blog as much as I would like to. As the date of the move gets closer, I am filled with different emotions about different aspects of my life. It is really funny how we make plans in our lives but God ALWAYS has the final say. Surprisingly, I am excited to move despite the packing all my stuff and going through things, etc. I am just ready to be in a new place and start a new chapter in my life.


I’ve missed writing and feeling like I have time to spare. Recently even when I finish half the stuff on my to do list, I still feel like it wasn’t enough, and I want to do more. That is when fatigue begins to take over and it’s pretty hard to fight that but I try to, if only for a little while.  (Taking breaks when completing tasks is a must, even if it’s a 5 minute break. I haven’t quite mastered this skill myself yet, but when I do take breaks I feel better and more alert when I return to the task.)


No matter what happens life is constantly going, things are constantly happening. But like I stated in a blog a few weeks ago, we have to make sure we are taking that time to BREATHE and do some self-care. (So much easier said than done.) As I am sure you have gathered reading this blog, I have been neglecting my self-care lately.  Sometimes I get so caught up in doing stuff I forget about self- care and how important it is especially to me for certain health reasons.


Yesterday when I finally did get to BREATHE it was nice, to actually just let my self have a moment to just take pictures and enjoy the wind blowing, and the music going on in the background.  🎧   There’s nothing like taking time to take care of yourself physically, mentally , and spiritually !


Speaking of music, some of my go to tunes lately have been by Lauren Daigle. They have been uplifting for me. What are some of your go to tunes? What type of music do you like? I am planning to do a cover of one of her songs again soon! I did her Trust In You cover on a blog titled Trusting in God ! Check it out if you haven’t already !!!


 Over the next few weeks I am hoping to start a new series, give you the release date on my newest book that will be out in the next few weeks lord’s willing, and continue to share my journey with you ! You will hear from me soon !


3  Random Fun Facts About Me: (for my new subscribers)

  1. I have been transitioning to a vegan lifestyle for the last three weeks! I love it !
  2. I love to sing, write, and sometimes even paint !
  3. I currently have black, purple, and blue hair!

Thanks for reading. Feel free to comment with fun facts about yourself ! Thank you to all my subscribers who have been reading my work, about my journey, my struggles, and my truth. Writing is what gets me through the hard days and I wouldn’t have it any other way ! Love God & Love People.


Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M.

 

 

Hello Weekend !!!

So far this weekend things have been a little hectic for me while trying to balance doing school work (final/homework) along with, working on others projects, preparing for my move/college transfer in a few weeks, and participating in the book signing event yesterday. Through all the things going on in my life, I am thankful I am able to just take a minute and just BREATHE. Sometimes we need that. We need to take a moment from our busy day-to-day schedules and just smell the roses, read a book, go to a movie, go for a jog, go to the beach, spend time with loved ones(without electronic devices) , read your bible, pray, or just do something  enjoyable that can free your mind from expectations, to do lists, due dates, etc. I have found this is much easier said than done, most of the time. It’s like no matter what happens in our lives, life keeps going, it’s almost as if there is no room to stop and BREATHE. Honestly we have to make that room because as humans beings we all experience fatigue and overwhelming things at one time or another in our lives. Let’s be honest, it is hard to function at our full capacity when we aren’t well rested and we feel overwhelmed/stressed. So this week and every week remain aware, hold yourself accountable to see if you are taking those moments to BREATHE. Set out that time to do something you enjoy! Something to recharge your mind,body, and spirit!


For me I feel as if I recharge in various ways ! One of my favorite ways to take my moment to BREATHE is by doing something I enjoy, like participating in events where I am able to connect with people.


Book Signing Event 8/5/17


Yesterday I participated in a book signing event ! It was an great experience and I am so thankful I got the opportunity to connect with people and share my work! I also got to give away free e-books to 3 lucky WINNERS !!! As I sat at my table with my books in front of me talking to people as they passed my table I realized something. I realized that at the end of everyday no matter what our occupation is, hobbies, status,beliefs,etc, we are all just people. Imperfect, bad habits, flaws and all, but just people. In today’s time life hits each one of us in different ways and we sometimes become so self-absorbed in our own issues and in ourselves we lose sight of all the beauty around us, along with all the beauty we can create. We can create beauty with a simple smile or hello, or just having a conversation with a stranger about something you may have in common. We have to look outside the box that we sometimes put ourselves in with our beliefs,ideas,or habits, etc and realize that we weren’t put here to live in a box  and only think one way and only see things one way. We were put here to love God & love people with our words,actions, and just everything we have, with everything we are. So many of us are losing sight of this and getting so focused on negativity and in things that DON’T MATTER. Talking and connecting with people yesterday made me just think and analyze things in my own life. It is so important to always keep your eye on your goals, but always keep your why in mind. Always know why you are doing what you are doing. Why are you trying to become an author? Why  are you trying to become a doctor? Why are you trying to become a counselor? Why ? What is your why? In answering the question of your why please keep in mind, money isn’t everything. As I said in my latest book Words Are Art money won’t buy you anything but THINGS. Don’t lose sight of your why. Losing sight of your why may cause you to get caught up in things that DON’T MATTER. Love God & love people let this be your why.


Overall, it was a great experience getting to share my journey and my work with others, and I can’t wait for the next event! I want to say THANK YOU A TON to all the lovely authors & people I got the pleasure of meeting and chatting with! Stay in touch! My memoir release date is coming soon !


Isabel & Natasha 8/5/17 Book Signing Event


While connecting with others yesterday, I also got the opportunity to meet and talk with some awesome authors! I am glad I finally got a signed copy of  The American Dream And Everything In Between   !!! (Click on the link to GET YOUR COPY TODAY & SEE BELOW for a description )

Description : Thousands of people have this dream of living in America but sometimes they have no idea what one goes through to live that dream. Immigration is a very important part of it and Isabel talks openly about her experience trying to find a job and in a way, gives you tips to fix some of the problems by just learning her story.


We make a living by what we get,but we make a life by what we give. ~ Winston Churchill

 

 

Inspire. Motivate. Love ~ Natasha M. 

Thanks for reading ! Be Blessed !