Fun Facts About Me! 

I decided to have some fun with this blog post, so you all can get to know me a little better ! The following 15 facts are all about me….

1.  I have approximately 12 tattoos, all of which can be covered by regular clothes.

2. One of my favorite tattoos is on my wrist and says “Be Free.”

3. In 10th grade I thought it was a good idea to do a project on vegetarianism, but I had no clue what it was like being a vegetarian. So I became a vegetarian and have been practicing different types of vegetarian diets since (about 8 years total.) I currently only eat dairy products. No chicken, fish, beef, pork, etc.

4. I eventually want to become a vegan.

5. I auditioned for both Juilliard and CalArts within a few weeks of one another. (Talk about NERVE WRECKING)

6. I love to sing but I don’t know how to read music.

7. Technically I am currently working on two new books a biography and a memoir. (Release dates coming soon)

8. Me and my mom have matching tattoos.

9. Non fiction is my favorite genre to write, but I prefer reading the Bible or fantasy books  (ex. kings, queens, knights,dragons,etc)

10. I changed my major in school 4 times. I finally settled on English & Theater only to now work on changing it again to allied health or pre med, so I can become either a emergency medicine doctor or physician’s assistant. We will see what happens ! (Though I have anxiety over it, I believe God will lead me where he wants me to be.)

11. Lemon water is my favorite drink.

12. If I don’t recognize ingredients in products when I’m grocery/vitamin shopping I google it.

13. The memoir that I am currently writing has been one of the most stressful things I’ve written.

14. I really enjoy animal documentaries/shows narrated by David Attenborough.

15. I’ve had braces a total of two times in my life, (once in high school & now in college) currently I’m on my second & last treatment with braces.

If you haven’t already make sure you connect with me on my author’s facebook page for more updates!  Feel free to comment below I would love to hear some fun facts about you!

I Wait For Your Voice.

I wait for your voice but all I can hear is all the voices around me saying do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go, what you want me to do, who you want me to be, I want to know you Lord. So I wait for your voice but all I keep hearing is the noise of sirens, of cries, of yelling, of war, of heart break, but I will wait, I wait for your voice but now all I can hear is my own voice accompanied by my thoughts screaming, you’re not enough, you’re never going to be in the right place, you’re never going to be complete, you’re never going to be healed, you’re never going to be unbroken, you’re never going to reach your full potential, and you’re going in the wrong direction. My voice says turn right, no turn left, no go straight, no go back, no just stand still but through all of this I wait. I wait for your voice because all I want to know is where you want me to go, what you want me to do, and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord. So I will learn to be still,I will learn to block out the noises, and the voices of the world, I will learn to challenge and block out the self doubting thoughts. I will block out the do this, do that, say this, say that, be this, be that. I want to only hear your voice, I want to know where you want me to go Lord, what you want me to do and who you want me to be. I want to know you Lord, so I will wait for your voice.

Trust in the Lord God with all your heart.
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Afraid, Ashamed, and Words Unspoken

So many things left frozen in time. Calls left unmade, cancelled appointments, hours upon hours of missed time at work, limits on things you can do, due to anxieties, toxic emotional habits, stories left untold, poems left unwritten due to negative feelings associated with them, it’s not knowing what state of mind you will wake up in from one day to next, so many emotions, so much emptiness, it’s hiding scars  with bandages and extra clothing, it’s being triggered by countless things sometimes you yourself don’t even understand, its unopened letters, it’s secret tears, it’s times where life seems to be passing by and it feels like mentally your stuck in a one place, it’s knowing the truth but believing a lie, it’s hurting in ways other people couldn’t even begin to understand, it’s the flashbacks, it’s those times where you are convinced you are not enough, it’s late nights where flashbacks and misery seem to consume you, it’s the times where the questions am I sick? and am I crazy ? are things you really ask, it’s the thoughts that say physically my body feels okay,but mentally I feel broken more times than not.

 Part of me feels like the mental illness has been my journey for a while now and it has become somewhat normal to me, living with chaos all the time, the only difference currently is, it seems to be in my head instead of in the environment around me. Through it all, I must remember. I am a child of God, and I am loved by him despite my illness and so are you. 

This has been one of the hardest blogs I have ever written. It’s real, honest, and doesn’t beat around the bush. I was led to share this I hope it helps to show people they are not alone and that everyone has their own obstacles in life.I figured this blog was hard because maybe I am afraid, maybe I am ashamed, or maybe I’d rather leave those words unspoken,unsaid. But I just couldn’t let fear get the best of me. Thanks for reading ! Be Blessed !

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of it’s own.      ~Matthew 6:34 (NIV)

 

 

I will not….

I will not be afraid, not of rejection, not of criticism, and not of those who make it their business to try to make me fail in one way or another.
I will not quit under pressure.
I will not throw in the towel even when I feel I am more than overwhelmed by the problems of this life.
I will not break even when the world beats me senselessly trying to break me. I will not be a label, a diagnoses. I will not be. I will not return hate for hate. I will not, will you?

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Questions…

These thoughts flowed through her mind over and over again, and she wondered if the pain would ever go away ? If the hurt would ever seize to exist ? If the images would ever truly be erased from her memory ? The days keep flowing, the medication keeps getting swallowed. Nothing seems to change. The brokenness and memories are still there and sometimes they take over her mind to a point where she is incapable of enjoying the life right in front of her. The therapy, the medication, and people’s lack of understanding broke her in a way no amount of therapy, medication or even love could begin to repair. The brokenness she felt had made its way to her soul. These thoughts flowed through her mind over and over again. Will the pain ever go away ? Will the hurt ever cease to exist? And will the images ever truly be erased from her memory? Questions she couldn’t answer, and wondered if she would ever be able to?


Signed,

Misery

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Means of Escape.

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I started this blog because I have lost touch with my passion, which is writing.Writing has allowed me to express myself and put things in new perspectives. I like to write poems, papers, stories, etc. Funny thing is when I was a kid I even attempted to write songs.   I guess I had to find a way to put words together to explain feelings, events, and the world around me,to an extent. Writing has been a means of escape for me during hard times and I have really grown to appreciate it. I am planning to pour love and awesomeness into all my posts! I hope you all enjoy. Don’t forget to hit the subscribe button !Be blessed always and remember God is a good good father who loves you more in one moment than anyone else could in a lifetime.

Signed,

Nat Min 🙂

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